Stay

 I look to that eyes deeply, It locks me already

The cord changes in to another cord

And the sound of melody blows me

 

Ohhh please move your hand here…

And touch me…

Move your body slowly…

And lead me…

 

Throw my self closer, that heartbeat I hear

Feel that hand tighter and I can’t hold it any longer

Night move faster and faster and this strange feeling I bear

And baby why don’t you stay?

Please just don’t give me another goodbye

I can give you everything to heal you from that pain

Please just stay…

I’m so tired for being lonely

Throw that shadow and change the red in to the blue

Because she can’t love you like how the way I do

 

(In the blue corner, sometimes it feels strange when a doubt starts coming again- IeRn)

When I become 25

“You are so young dear, just try many things in your young age” they said. Yeap, that’s right… still so many future are waiting for me in the front, lots of things need to be done. “Time is pass so fast sweetheart, you need to start thinking about your future (read: family)” mom said. Yeap and she is right… time is ticking so fast. Without I realize…
I still remember 10 years back, when I was 15 years old. I was out from my parent house, continued study in the far. It was an Informatics school, funny… because I always want to be a doctor when I was kid and I ended up as an engineer. I cried in the first night staying there, knowing that mom would not take care of me anymore. It was hard time, when 1.000 rupiah still means something. When I needed to think 3 times to buy a book with 25.000 rupiah price. I studied hard, I had not much time to play with some friends but I think other students did the same in that school. I believe, will always there is a sacrifice before the winning.
So I passed my 3 years in that school with excellent score. I got the best score in that province. My name was on the newspaper that day and it made my mom cried. Don’t know because of what, proud maybe… or she never believed her little girl got those kinds of things.
Passed my school I got several opportunities, free to join one of great university in this country without any test and several companies asked me to join them. Well hard decision to choose.
I was 17 when I decided to accept the opportunity working in one of big company in this big city. I had no idea how the office environment was. I was looked like a small little girl, knowing nothing about life big game. The first 3 months, I had no idea what I should do in that company. My background was informatics and the management put me in the telecommunication department. So it was full of doubts was that the right decision to choose working in my so young age.
Day changed into another day, month changed into another month and everything got better. I studied again from zero about anything related with my job in this company.
Year later when I was 18, I continued my study. Again, it was tough time. Working during the day and study during the night…. Monday till Saturday…
I think when I was younger I was not fun person. I faced everything in my life seriously.
Till I met someone, he changed lots of my opinion about life. I think he will always be a part in history of my life. He showed me how huge this world. We traveled to several places in this world. Slowly I changed from serious person be a humorist person… from introvert be bit extrovert. He was my boy friend for 3 years till finally far distance between us throw our love away.
After 4 years I finished my study with excellent point, well I was proud of that because I realized it was so hard to get it. Sometimes I had to sleep so late because I needed to prepare my exam. And absolutely when I made the final report, it was the toughest time.
Unbelievable I wrote more than 400 pages on that report, I had no idea either what actually I wrote there.
I bought small house 2 yeas ago when I was 23 and I just moved there since last 3 months right after I broke up with a man that I call as my boy friend for several months. Living in the far and alone opened my eyes how the real life in this city is. Faced traffic jam in each single day, passed in supermarket to buy some fruits or vegetables then home and cooked my own meal.
I kept continue to write, talked with white blank Microsoft word about love, life and this world. I kept love books and read it from one chapter to another chapter to open my mind. I still fell in love with the music, even though always nervous for me to stand on the stage and sang in front of people but I kept sing in my morning time. I still did traveling to give me smile and the strong experience to help me make a deal with this life. I still enjoyed meeting people; they gave me fresh news and nice jokes accompanied by drinks, music or nice meal. I still interested with man… they could give me peace, happy, doubt, angry and any other un explanation multi color of feeling. I started to love painting when I realized it made me fell happy after long hours worked and I could see it hang nice on my house wall.
And I still watched movies because it gave me lots of inspirations in life to be an independent woman. A movie called The Lake House, it was my first inspiration that made me decided to move into that house and live alone in the far.
But now days… this city feels so suck… traffic jam, the flood, again traffic jam it makes me feel stuck up. I couldn’t find any interesting things anymore in this city. Yeah it was seven years I’ve been staying in here. Is it time to move out? Trying to get another opportunities in outside? I don’t know, lets time answer it.
Now when I become 25, lots of things that I want to get. Lots of plans hang in my head. Sit down on this beach sand and accompany by sound of wave not too far, I’m trying to write it one by one. Yeap… Lets start it girl… make this year as a strong background of your future. Good luck, you’ve got so much so far. Be a person that you always want to be even when you need to leave your comfort zone right now to get it... you’ll be there!

(IeRn – Thanks dears for your birthday wishes)

There is something that you can’t buy

I have a doubt now, here in my heart. Time that ticking so fast has brought my age more than 43 since last couple months. And I… I just don’t know what I actually looking for in my life. I keep single and no commitment. And everybody… one by one starting left me. They built their own family.

Take 2 days off from my success business that has given me lots of money, I invited a woman that I dated a weeks ago to visit this country. Picked her up with my jaguar, brought her flower, gave her nice present, it was enough to make her in love with me. And I start tired with this style. Will they still love me just like what they always said if I don’t have any of this shit?.. Well, I’m not quite sure.

Enjoy late of afternoon alone with my cigar because I sent that woman to enjoy spa in that luxury resort, suddenly I think about marriage, the shit thing that I never believe since long time. Then stupid thinking comes up, how I could manage marriage if even I don’t know how to commit to someone. I couldn’t even commit to a woman more than 3 months and I always had affair in every relationship that I had.

And… suddenly I remember her, a small girl that I used to date several months ago. She broke me up in last 2 months. Yeah she chose the right decision to leave me. And I know that she was the only woman that I ever date and never think about my money. She gave me love but I just didn’t understand why it was not enough and I still tried to search a pleasure from somebody else. This is like disease and I don’t know when I could be free from that.2 weeks ago I tried to call her again and asked her out for dinner. And when I met her I realized that this type of woman that I could spend rest of my life with. Pretty, smart, nice job and lovely… gosh I really don’t understand my self what else actually I want.
“I miss you, I really do. I thought about us many times and I realize probably you are my one”. That’s honest words from inside of my heart. She just gave me smile.
“I believe that you miss me sometime. But dear, I believe that you’ll never change. Because you still don’t know what actually you want in this life. And when another pretty woman comes and you’ll be so easy to forget me. Please just don’t put me in the shit condition again”.
"I know I’m difficult” and that’s all what I can say. I so respect her.
“I love you and I’m so crazy because I miss you badly sometimes but I don’t think I want you anymore. You know I care about you, so please baby…. learn how to commit to someone if you don’t want end up 60 and alone. I wish you luck. Good bye sweetheart.”
And she left me. Never ever in my life a woman did something like that to me. And I did nothing except kept silent on my table and thought about what she said.

This cigar now is almost finished and still silent ness fills the time. Yeah my life so far was money woman money and woman. And now when I want it, a true life and no one truly want me... they just want my money…

("oh Sweetheart, life is up and down... there is a time when everything that you have will be gone and if that happen i wish there is someone that will hold your hand and keep beside you to pass the difficult time... good luck on your way!")

(IeRn)

Confuse

When i look to that eyes
Everything feels alright
When little touch grabs my body
I have no worry
But when that words came
Something about a feeling
And my confuse coming
Old shadow still hanging
Its big kingdom imagining
And that eyes isn't alright anymore
And the touch is just meaningless pleasure
Oh old shadow...please give me your one last word
Don't keep to be a bastard
And bring all this doubt
Enough to give me trouble
Becouse i just want to be normal

(IeRn)

Part of Chapter 5 from untitle Long story that i working on

She tried to write again now, not as a professional but she did it for her self. She was an introvert person so with writing she could tell what she felt to that blank Microsoft Word. She didn’t need the response she just needed to be listened.
“My name is Christi, 28 years old woman. Lonely and single….” She didn’t know where to start it. She deleted all the sentences and white blank Microsoft Word appeared again.

“The sun already disappeared since last 2 hours. The city light now makes the night shining. One...two...three... and more other building seems so perfectly. Sit down here alone accompany by James Blunt music slowly, I watch some cars on the road down stair that never stop. The blinking small light from those cars are just like plankton in the night sea. And this big nice arranged room, it’s just so nice but I don’t know why it feels empty… And my thinking is just flying…made those cars plankton disappearing.

I open my eyes and big nice arranged room shown. Cars plankton in down there appears again. And this room still feels empty. There isn’t big nose that I used to play with. There isn’t deep voice that sometimes heard so nice in my ear. There isn’t strong body to pick me up to the bed. There isn’t naughty finger to make me laugh in the morning when I wake up. There isn’t big hand that holds me from the back during my sleep. There isn’t…. I close my eyes now; try to search a face to kill this miss feeling.

Again I open my eyes back to my reality. Cars plankton is still blinking down there, just now less then before. That transparent curtain move slowly, I don’t know is it because of raining in outside. Hmmmm… I miss those sensitive ears that sometimes can’t make me sleep during the rain seasons. I miss those hands that force to wash my hair even when it doesn’t know how to do it. I miss that move when you lead me in my exercise night. I miss the laugh that we had after that. I miss your don’t care face when you are not in your mood. I miss your fancy style that sometimes made me look so ordinary beside you. I miss how the way you smoke your cigar or I call it big boss style. I miss many things and I miss you. Just let say that love sometimes can find it own way to make us feel happy. And when this miss feeling comes up I just close my eyes is like what I do now and search a face, a face of you, the last face that keep stay in my memory when all faces suddenly gone“.

She stopped there. “He was right, I’m a drama queen”.

(IeRn, ==> still 50 pages... )

No Second Chance

When I see the past
Bad memories I got
When I heard your apologize
Your lied again I face

How many bullshit words were said
How many fake acts were demonstrated
To erase this sympathy
Left it in empty

If you still have that respect
Just please never come back
Let it evaporate
Like before when the shadow still zero

(IeRn)

My Immortal

This face now looked like shit
This body just similar with garbage
Time that ticking this fast
Has changed all

It is too late when I realize
My undersized life
One by one starting left me
Everything now feels empty

And I look at her
A woman that I adore
Although now only the picture
That I miss so brutal
To accompany my immortal

(IeRn)

Karma

Yellow has been gone
Walking home, empty I found
Called her, only tone rang on
Throw this big body
I feel worry

Now dark is coming
Sit down here with nothing
Thinking about them
Lots beauty around
But only one now that I want
And she’s gone

(IeRn)

You are not alone

Do you remember 2 years ago when we felt so safe, so free, so independent, so many dreams... when we could sing any song, when we could talk about many things... when we could stay all night just in silent… when we could hang around, did everything that we wanna do and no need to explain why is that… when we could have our own time to imagine our own future without someone need to disturb it… when we didn't need to think about lonely ness, about those fucked up things...

Do you remember 2 years ago, the high way with high speed, no house around us, no building around us... just the sun and those big sand... accompanied my messed voice sang that ncie song… accompanied you controlling our car…

Do you remember 2 years ago, my scream was so loud when that roller coaster brought me to the top and made me cry and I promised to my self will never do those stupid things anymore… or when the Mickey Mouse train made me laugh out loud...

Do you remember 2 years ago when we watched that incredible jimmy something concert, no one his song that we knew but we just sang ya ya ya… so insane… then we sat down in outside till morning came… silent ness around us because both of us too lazy to talk… just enjoyed the nice shape of twin towers in front of us…

Do you remember 2 years ago when we met up in that airport… you run to me and I run to you… when that clock suddenly stopped waiting for us… when rain suddenly came to wash our face… when sun appeared later to cheer us up…

Now... will you remember that we are so lucky… even though both of us far away, we still have nice memories that will make us smile when we remember it… don’t be sad my friend because you are not alone.

(IeRn, Inspired by Michael Buble – Lost)

Hard Month (Mixed Grammar)

This week will still there is work in the night; it’s just like another past weeks. Work all night, headache, call 1 people to another people to make coordination and don’t sleep at all. Yeahh... that is the risk to work with machine, wait people sleep so your machine will be empty from the traffic and you start your work.

This week I don’t know, will I getting sick again is just like the last week. Stayed on bed, had fever, felt bitter in my tongue, couldn’t sleep, couldn’t eat. Ahhh… so sad, even someone that I care about is just never care about me although I had that sickness.

This weekend will be alone again; it’s just like another past weekends. There is no date, there is no boyfriend. He is disappearing, I have no idea where is he going… what is he doing… why is he disappearing… from me. The only reason, he found a woman that can give him what he always called a good life including a good c*m. what the f**k.

Yesterday, I tried to call him, someone that I save his number with “my baby”. No one pickup my phone, it was just like the other past days. And he never called me back same with those last couple days.

Yesterday, I tried to say hi over YM to this id, the only one id that I put it in “babe” group. I got the answer “busy, talk to you later”, it was just like usually. And the fact is he never talks to me later.

So I’m tired… I’m tired to always think about him, to always care, to always be lovely, to always loyal while he never even try to do the same thing to me. I think that isn’t a thing that we can call as relationship. So maybe I’ll just silent, no need to think, no need to always care, no need too lovely, no need to sit down in the home just to prove I’m a loyal person. I’ll be a passive one.

This Saturday I had my afternoon tea. It was just like the past weekends ordinary activities. Sat down in the corner of this coffee shop, I had my laptop, I had my book, I had my mobile phone but I didn’t know why I felt so lonely. I reached my mobile phone and called the only person that maybe could give me smile. She picked up the phone… “Mom” I said. “Hey, are you alright sweetie? Why your voice heard ugly?” nah I smiled already. Another question come “How’s your boy friend? Why you alone in the weekend? Don’t you go out with him?…..” and another bla bla bla hehe. I said “he is fine, just bit busy. But it’s good so I can have lots of time to talk with you”. And there I was, talked to my mom about world, about man, about cook, about work, about the price of BBM, until about demonstration. Ohhh goodness mom, you are the only one….
Then I opened my laptop, opened some Japan cities pictures. Ahh... Japan, when I can face you. When I feel so sad like now, I really want to see you. See the Sakura, see the Fuji, see your temple, see your culture, see your people. But just seems like work still so crazy and I can’t leave the office now days. Just wait for me I’ll say hi to you next time.

Today is Sunday… with my small bag; I’m going to the airport. Leave this city to another city in the east for only 1 day. One of my good friends is getting married. Ohh God, Sometimes we just never realize that time is ticking. I still remember my last birthday; I went to Hongkong because I just didn’t want to celebrate it. And now it’s already half way to face my birthday again and face that my age will count again. Yeahh… time, what can I say. Sometimes it makes us grow up and grow up. And it is always be a witness in each single thing happens to us.
Travelling in one day, then I’ll face this city again. Face this shit feeling again. Face this next hard week again. And still can’t face your face again. Hmm.. my hard month is still on going.

(iErN)

Imagine (New Re-arrange)

Maybe I’m not this miss universe
Or those actress
That have big breasts or nice hips

Maybe I’m not the sun
That always shines through day and night
But for sure I’ll be there when you need a light

Maybe I’m not the fire like what you’ve been dream to
But I can be your water to safe you

Maybe I can’t be a person to know all about you
But I’ll be the one to understand your doubt
The one to pick you up when you feel drop
With this love…

(IeRn)

What’s life of mine? (Mixed Grammar)

Silly… Everyday I saw the same road, the same building, same taxi, and same work. Every time I heard the same story… story of mine about broken heart… story of people about marriage or birth. Every week I watched movie in the same cinema, all were about love… all about crying… but most of them end up happy.

Silly… Every time I met people, they always remembered my name but sometimes I just didn’t… In some average time I met man, most of them said I’m pretty… I’m lovely… I’m smart… I’m wonderful… but just that and they disappeared one by one. Dating for me was just like the wind, passed through even when it maybe didn’t start yet. In some seldom time I met really interesting man, but most of them have girl friend, wife, or too many girl friends. Once I met a man, too lovely, too patient, too perfect but just he is too old. So… this is pretty woman love life like what they said.

Silly… I laughed in front of them till one of them ever asks “did you ever cry?” I walked around and traveled till they said “you are so lucky to have all of this”. But I stand up in front of this mirror, tears in my cheek. I hide my self under my bedcover and those tears just drop like hell. I sat down with iPod in my ear, slow music played and one by one tear dropped from my eyes. So I walked around, see what world have so I could forget this tears that always want to be dropped.

Silly… I learned in the top school, everybody said I’m the best. They even put my education history in newspaper when I got best score in that province. But today I feel know nothing… lots people out there much much better than me. Now I realize that my score just only because of book that I read everyday frequently. I don’t have intelligent was like what they said about being the best.

Silly… I’m a talker but too introvert about my own personal life. I can’t tell story to someone even somebody that I knew since 10 years and people called her my best friend. Some other time when she didn’t understand, she always mad at me because I told her nothing about my life. So… no many friends of mine that maybe truly understand who I am. In some time, I met several friends… friends to hang around. Some of them are travelers; some of them are bitches and clubbers. That’s time was in the first time I knew how night club life is. Where woman could kiss every man she met, then maybe went to the man’s home with only 10 minutes conversation just only for fun. Or when they got drunk or throw up in the middle of dance floor. Or even their job hangs around in every night clubs to get money by sell their body. Ugly… that time I realized that this world is just so messed up. And I just sat down in the corner watching them. Or I moved my body alone enjoy the music that always makes me crazy.

Silly… I grown up in village but I feel I don’t want to stay there for living. City with their crowded thing is more me because I like to see lots of faces… faces of stranger. I have born in this country, but my nationality feeling to this country, time and time decreases. Till in the final time I really want to leave it and stay in another country where maybe I can find a new me. Find something new, try a new life, life that maybe even better than what I’ve had.

(iern)

Lost of the sense

I know your whisper
I know your smell
I heard your moan
I feel your sweat

I know what is sin
I know what the fake
I know the feeling
But making love, I know nothing

I hold on to your body
You lead me slowly
Lost, that is my feeling
Just your loud ahhhh heard in the ending
And where is mine?
I feel nothing….

(IeRn)

Loneliness (Mixed Grammar)

Life… is just not as simple as the word. Many things happen on our life, sad…happy…angry…and it just passes. Lonely and tragedy suddenly come and you realize how sick your life and then you just sit down on your nice couch and remembering about how happy you were when he still here accompany days and nights and you both passed it together. Then maybe sometimes your tears fall down just want to tell you how much you want those times back but you just couldn’t. Then you go to the crowded place, night club, and drunk maybe just to make you feel people. And you arrived home, wake up in the morning sit down on your bed then you back realize everything is still the same.

I walk with these feet along this street with my strep shoes. When all friends suddenly gone, when I have no body to talk with. When shopping now can’t make my thinking wake up. When man flirting feel not interesting... Then I just sit down to this old chair watching that blue water of this lake. Think…cry or maybe laugh when those duck kissing. Enjoy the view and the loneliness all the day. And this silent ness makes me feel so better.
But I wake up and all just dreaming. I walk with those cars that their gas makes me coughing. I used my sport shoes run to that treat mil that that a/c make me suck. I sit down in this café with all people around with their annoying voice. I dance and drunk in that club. And all this crowded never make me feel better.

A morning kiss wakes me up and found his arm around my naked body. Down from the bed; make a coffee then sit down in the back garden watching him reading his morning newspaper. Smell his body and put my head on his shoulder. Or just ask him to accompany me jogging and bring some flower home. Cooking and dinner together then little surprise come when he gives me a nice kiss with a perfect gift for my birthday.

But then I wake up again with my lonely naked body, pillow beside me was empty. Jogging around and just found those stupid people flirting along the road. Go to this five star hotel restaurant with full dress up. A glass of champagne and grill of salmon in front of me. A perfect rose is plated in the middle of this table. Sound of classic piano heard softly. But I can feel those eyes look at me, a pretty girl enjoy a perfect dinner alone to celebrate her birthday. No one around her, no man even a friend. And they never know which age her celebrated till a cake with 30 candle come to her table.

(-IeRn, for a friend that make so laugh in the last time we met-)

A Virgin Bitch (mixed Grammar)

God, I’m a bitch. I’m a virgin bitch. Two cocktail plus one glass of tequila for tonight, I feel my head flying. I heard music play harder and harder and his hand just tighter and tighter. He grabs my back, moves his body use it to hit me to that bar table. Still he moves, now I feel his thing under his jeans feel like want to taste mine. And I move my body; give him chance to feel mine. We dance again and again because this music even louder. Everybody dance, they hit each other because no free place even only for put your body relax. And that is how the way they enjoy night club bars.

My head feel turn around, still he give me drink to my mouth. I even don’t ask what that is but it makes my body so hot. Now I loss control, my feet can’t stick me to this floor. I trust him to make me stand up. Gosh… I’m drunk. Going to toilet, I fall down and throw up. Drunk so not fun, I feel big headache and dying. After 20 minutes in this toilet, I try to go out with handling on the wall. And he is there, reach me with his hand. “Let’s home” he says and I just follow. Never ask which home he meant.

Arrive in his apartment; again I throw up in his toilet. Damn… it’s really not fun. Lying in his bed, he opens my dress. Kisses me softly, I look to his eyes. “You can do anything to this body, just don’t fuck me. I’m virgin”. And then time over without I remember.
Open this eyes, I see this room still on the dark. I have this pajama cover my body. I don’t find him beside me. Smell of coffee and sound of plate coming from the kitchen. I wake up, those headache still feel a little. “Morning baby, how your sleep?” he gives me morning kiss. “Cup of coffee and scramble egg. Please” he asks me to sit down and enjoy my meal that can’t count as breakfast because I see a watch on the wall already 12 p.m. I look at him “we barely know, and how come you so nice”. “Because you are virgin” I look at him with question eyes. “I thought you’re just a bitch bar same like those other woman. But see you’re not; on the drunk and still you said please don’t fuck me”. I hide my smile “Gosh... I’m really sorry ruin your night. You planed to have some fun and maybe home with a woman that you can fuck but you must took care a virgin drunk woman that begged you please don’t fuck me”. He laughs for my sentences. “You nice” he grabs my hair softly. “And you so handsome and gentleman” I look his eyes deeply. His smile appears “I think I really want to take you out for a nice dinner date where we can look each other and talking allots thing”. “I’ll so wait for that, call me” I give him my number and write my name too on that note. He receives the note, read it and look at me “Call me Mark”. I say thank for the pajama and his lovely morning and leave his apartment with big smile. Well the fuck up night not so fuck up now. And a virgin bitch still on the track with really nice and handsome man as her date soon.

(-IeRn-)

Covered Asia: Hongkong as a Magic Island (Mixed Grammar)

After 5 hours flight to the north outside my country, finally my flight landed in that island. Well maybe only few people knew that Hongkong is an archipelago country because have some separate islands. Outside the migration controlled, I saw lots Europeans and some other local people, well didn’t know actually they were local people or another East Asia countries because mostly they had similar faces. Turned on my mobile and busy called some other friends that should meet me in this modern hongkong airport, finally I found them, a France man, a Scotland woman, a Deutsche, and the creasiest coming from England…an Englander. They came from different city; one of them came from Beijing, one from Kuala Lumpur, the others coming from Singapore then me coming from Jakarta. But all of us knew each other and ever lived in Jakarta, my own town.
“Oh shit… why Indonesia flight always delay?” the Englander said. I just looked at him with no motion. “That’s why my friend leave your country and leave you” he continued, now with laugh. “I left him and that’s the reason he left my city because no reason anymore for him to stay” I gave my bag to him; he grabbed my hair as a good friend. The others came to us and we were busy with hugging each other. Yah… 6 months already we were separated by countries, its counted as long time for miss feeling.
Took 1 taxi from airport went to our hotel, along the way full with laugh and kidding. Well actually Hongkong airport have direct express train that will take you from airport to the city but we choose taxi because I wanted to see TsingMa bridge that very popular in Hongkong. For Airport Express they would cost you around 150 thousand rupiah with really nice trip; I can say it because when I backed to Jakarta, from Hongkong island to airport I used that train. Taxi cost us more expensive, open door they would charge 15 thousand rupiah and the price counting so fast, I didn’t know how much actually per km but till the city we must pay 300 thousand rupiah.
Entered the city, I saw TsingMa from the far…really incredible bridge with new modern design in the middle of ocean. I tried to make it a picture but to difficult to make it while I was inside the car.
The taxi still drove away outside the city to the place that little bit quite south of Hongkong. The area was called Cyber port area. We stayed in Le Meridien Hotel, its little bit far from the city, yah… around half an hour from Hongkong city but more quite and the view was nice because we could see the ship in the ocean including the sunset. Hotel in Hongkong was damn expensive, for that hotel we must pay 2,5 million rupiah per night. And the room was small. It was nice and modern but I think it was smaller when I compared it with the same 5 star hotel in Jakarta. From the hotel to the city, they had Trans bus every hour but still they charged us although we were the hotel guest. The charge was around 50 thousand rupiah.

Covered Hongkong in the next day we went around the city. Hongkong is an island. From Hongkong Island you could see Kowloon and any other island was like another country. The distance between one island to others was relative close. It makes really nice view, mostly when you saw it in the night. About transportation inside Hongkong, you didn’t need to worry because transportation there was really good. They covered by underground train in any direction. You could pay the ticket in ticket box automatically that placed in everywhere in station. You just choose the direction where you wanted to go and prepare money. Well I think the ticket box in there was really smart; it even could receive paper money and gave you back the paper money and the coin also. So no need for you to confused about where you could get the coin. I think it’s smarter than the machine that I ever found in Europe, where I need to change my money to coin first then I could buy the ticket. There were some machines that received the paper money but it just limited amount of money. So in every station in Hongkong you would not find ticket counter because everything done by machine. You just only saw the information place that will help you about anything. Nice…
About the architecture, the skyscraper there was designed really nice because mostly building in Hongkong was built on the hill. There was one building that very famous there, it was called IFC (International Finance Centre). That building was very high until you even couldn’t see the top every morning because smoke covered it. On January, time when I went there, winter still coming in Hongkong and the air mostly was smoke. And the weather was around 16 degrees…yah… not too cold for winter I think. But maybe the weather will be perfect on April because it will be 24-26 degrees, a perfect weather for walking. IFC was a modern building with classy huge mall inside it. It related with Hongkong main Train station that looks like an airport; really huge…I think it’s around 5 floors.
I went to some other places in Hongkong Island. Some places that must go during in Hongkong Island are a museum so you can understand how Hongkong were built. The Scotland woman and Englander didn’t go with us to the museum, because they still busy with shopping in IFC…hmm… And then there was big park that be called Victoria Park, but for Indonesian be carefull there were a lot Indonesian worker there or Indonesia local people called them TKW (Tenaga Kerja Wanita) because mostly the workers are woman. I went to that park and found lot women that speak Javanese language, my mother language... haha I run away. One thing for you that like shopping will enjoy during you are in Hongkong is shopping time. Well there, you could find a lot shops with SALE on the window, you could find from famous brands till local product. I so enjoyed that. So don’t forget to bring enough money for shopping. There were a lot shopping centre, in the mall and others just small brand boutique along the street. So you entered from one boutique then went out and went to another boutique in the next door. It’s not same like Singapore where the boutique placed inside the mall.
For you that don’t like branded stuff, don’t worry you can buy the traditional things that are cheaper. This market called xxxx street (well I forgot the name, I’ll search it later in my handycam) and it’s only open during night till morning. All stuff in that street was quite cheap. I bought one miniature of Geisha only with 50 thousand rupiah, my friends bought t-shirt with mandarin word, he even didn’t know the meaning but he said cool so he took it haha, really interesting. This market was located in the corner of Hongkong, you could reach it by train and just need to walk for 2 blocks.

In the second day in Hongkong we went to the Victoria Peak, from this peak you could see all around Hongkong. And of course the Tsing Ma bridge. My eyes couldn’t stop to see the blue water in the down and nice big bridge on it, really incredible view. Well in Victoria Peak there were a lot places were you could enjoy cup of Chinese tea during watching the view and felt the cold weather. This place is better enjoyed during sunrise or sunset, so you can see the sun. I went there for the sunset. It’s in the up of Hongkong. We sat down in a tea café, talking about anything stupid that we ever done while waiting sun went down and finally disappear.

For night life, Kowloon was the place. It was only 10 minutes from Hongkong, you could reach it by underground train. In Kowloon you’ll find people from all countries. Bar and night club was open till morning and the street would never empty by people. We went there to enjoy music and had fun. In one nice bar I ordered “Virgin Long Island”. Those stupid friends look at me “you know long island right?” the Deutsche asked me. I said yes. “And u said virgin??” he continued and again I said yes. “It’s mean you order lemon tea” the Englander completed the Deutsche sentence with big laugh. I just didn’t care with them, “who cares, I don’t drink alcohol and I think virgin long island will be more nicer name then lemon tea haha” maybe from that they like me because I’m so funny (too confidence). But what I like from those people is they respect about who I’m, and I tried to respect also about who they are. All of us understand about the differences, every people and every country or religions have their own rules and standard about anything. I’ll tell you that one of those people didn’t believe of God but I can’t tell you which one. He said I can’t believe anything that I can’t see. I asked him several question about died or birth and how come those happen without something that control it and he gave me answered about knowledge bla bla so I stopped my questions. But still everybody respect him because finally it depend any of us which life that we want to choose. Anyway that night was fun, there was a nice band coming from Australia, I forgot the name and it was really good performance and we so enjoyed it.

The third day after slept till mid noon, in the afternoon we tried to cover some island outside Hongkong. We went to Lama Island; you could reach some of those islands from ship port in the middle of city. The ferry ticket price was so cheap, nah there you need coin to pay the ticket from ticket box. But don’t worry there are some counters where you can change your paper money to be a coin. I paid 15 thousand for boat trip to Lama Island. The island is not a tourist place, but there we could see how the shipper’s life. And also we can enjoy nice and cheap seafood. My Deutsche friend like seafood very much, so he eats was like crazy. Me… yah so so, I only like the fish, not much on crab. But still it delicious, eat seafood directly from the place while see shipper’s ships.
Almost night when we arrived back to the city, and I already dying couldn’t go anywhere after 4 hours trip in the middle of ocean.

The fourth day… that was Saturday, the day that was waited because that Disneyland time. Disneyland was little bit far from Hongkong. It was placed in the north of Hongkong as own island. You could reach it by a Mickey train from Hongkong station. I called it Mickey train because everything, train’s interior and exterior using mickey stuff. Even the window use Mickey style. The train ticket I think around 100 thousand rupiah. Don’t shock when inside the train you’ll find a lot young people because a lot interesting games in Disneyland. The trip was around 1 hour. Disneyland was in the hill, so you’ll feel that the train little bit up. Arrived in Disney you’ll find Disney things in all stuff, start from lamp, pot, the gate or even the flowers. Haha my child feeling came up, very funny. The ticket to enter Disneyland was around 300 or 400 thousand rupiah, I little bit forgot. And you could use all games with those tickets. Used the train, they showed us animation animals around the place. Not much interested for me, it’s only for children. Taman Safari Bogor I think was much better. Some games in Hongkong Disneyland were quite boring and only interesting for children. But some others was really good, example Galaxy Trip where the fast train, we called it Halilintar in Indonesia bring you slowly to a cave that was already set like Galaxy that have lots planet then moving so fast around 2 minutes. I screamed and angry with my Englander friend because he the one that force me to join that game. Shit! Ten minutes after and my heart still jumping and he just laughed look at to my stupid face. I found my stupid face in a picture centre, without we knew they took our picture when we used their game and sell it to us. I even didn’t want to see my own face in that camera but the Englander paid for that picture and brought it with him maybe for mouse in his apartment. The other interested game and the most I like was 4 dimension of Mickey movie. They gave us the glasses then we watched the 4 Dimension of Disney movie. Amazing… it was like they brought me with them flying, jumping and any others. Even I could smell the cake and feel the wind. My France man couldn’t stop to move his hand tried to catch something that he saw in front of him. After out from the cinema I always called him stupid and he protested as usual. Ah remembering Disneyland, I remembered a song that sing by Five for Fighting “Disneyland”. That song talk about how happy if we wake up everyday in Disneyland.
In the afternoon around 4 pm, the Disney parade appears. All Disney actors, Mickey, Mini, Donald and others join to the parade and everybody busy with their own camera and clack click tried to catch their pictures. Including me…
After all the day spent time in Disneyland, we backed again to the city. What can I say; I think Hongkong Disneyland wasn’t like what I expected. In my opinion it was standard, lots game that you can find in any other country, only the architecture that really nice with the hill background. Maybe Japan Disneyland is much better, well I’ll tell you more about Japan in other writing.

The fifth day, we spent days covered Cyber port. Walking around in the morning, only 2 people joined me because the Englander and France man still died in their room. We saw Chinese funeral, where everything looks white and plus they put died people’s picture on it. Hmmm… I said crazy when my Scotland woman or blonde (a name that we gave to her) take a picture with one of them.
Cyber port was a quite place; we only enjoyed the cinema and restaurant in that area. Lots nice restaurant there but because I didn’t eat pork so difficult for us to find a restaurant that free from it. One of my friend said “don’t say you’ll bring us to Kebab again” I just laughed. The other day I ever brought them to Kebab because it was free from Pork, and they lost their smile. “You’ll not die with eat Pork, you even don’t eat it… even the pork oil already make you afraid. What is this thinking” he continued. Difficult sometime to explain to them what the reason is why can’t and why can in my believing so I just answered “who cares”. And still follow me to search restaurant. Finally we went to a Chinese restaurant that gave us very big food. Easy for me to eat it because I often eat Chinese food and seems they liked it also. So it’s fair.

The sixth day was the time I should back to my country because my holiday only for 8 days. The France man continued to Thailand for work in the next day, the blonde and Deutsche will stay more 3 days in Hongkong before back to their work place. The Englander came to Jakarta with me, he said afraid if stupid man took me so he should be my bodyguard. That was so not true; the truth was he missed Jakarta. He likes that city very much and that time he took 3 weeks vacation. Actually he asked me went to Vietnam directly from Hongkong because it’s already closed, I said no with reason afraid of war. “Just say you don’t want because no war in Vietnam” haha I just laughed, because the truth reason was I needed to back to work or my company will fired me. He even provoked will teach me painting if I come with him, still I said no. After gave up and said how difficult I’m, finally he bought ticket to come to Jakarta with me with promise I’ll accompany him around Bali and maybe search for him a nice woman to be his girl friend. Huh… I said “nah now you ask me to be Germo” he knew the meaning and answer “its true girl friend, maybe if we matched I’ll marry her” its make me laughed too much when a crazy European man told me about marriage. He hit my head and I screamed “auchhhh”.
Finally after waited the boarding around 1 hour, I left Hongkong with big smile after amazing experience in the magic island.

(IeRn)

Drunk

Dirty and empty, I found my self
Talking alone without partner
Tears drop never realize
Big laugh can’t be stopped

Stand up but walking I couldn’t
Drop on the floor and no one lend a hand
Music on my ear
Ask me to dance although no feet stick me on the floor
Reach your hand, empty I found
Imagine your face, Brad Pitt stumbled on

Wake up in the morning
Headache coming
On this bed, remember nothing
And never imagine who bed now I’m lying

(iERn)

Evil

I see field, drying no water…
Small corns come out from the small earth’s hole
Yellow and die
I see a farmer…
Big hat and dirty clothe
Dry face with small nose

I see a kid, with dirty face crying
Said hungry without listening her papa whispering
No rice, no corn, no food
To make an empty stomach filled
To stop little children’s crying…
And I did nothing, busy with my own thing
Feel happy with my own money collecting
But still…I gave him small of money
Not because I did sympathy
But because I’ll receive three times more
And add it to my own kingdom
That’s me…I’m an evil

(IeRn)

Shit Feeling

I feel like shit
Everything turned to me
Everything failed on me
Make a thing, I’m wrong
Learn a thing and nothing
All are damn
When shit and failed combine
Only down feeling left
Because everybody can’t understand
Even for me can’t control my own body

(IeRn)

Covered Thailand

On my feet in that town, it was so incredible experience. Flew from Frankfurt to Singapore then continued trip to Bangkok. I came in that city in the middle of night, every place looked so quite. Stayed in the area that called China town, maybe the most crowded place in that city. But it was cool, because you could find lots of things in that area. Street foot or just local snack, hmmm so yummi…

Started tour in the morning, I went to a place called Grand Palace, everybody said you couldn’t say that you were in Bangkok without went to that place, so I went there. That was so huge palace for a king. But what I could say, it was not looked like a palace but for me I thought it was more like a place with lots of temples. Only with 160 Bath or around 40 thousand rupiah you could enjoy huge, nice and luxury castle. People said some of the castle was truly built by gold. But it was only rumors and I didn’t know was that right or not. But one thing that I could say, Grand Palace was incredible place when you could absolutely saw lots of Buddhist cultures that maybe you couldn’t see in another place.

Well there was a thing that I wanna say for you if maybe you interested with that place, Grand Palace was closed only till 4 p.m and no short or tank top allowed. But don’t worry, because you could lend a long traditional dress there. I think it was around 80 Bath or if I convert it to rupiah maybe around 20 thousand rupiah.

Out from Grand Palace, just took a walk around and you could find lots gift shops. I bought nice pink wide hat that time, yah the price was around 60 – 100 bath. Enjoyed the afternoon with new nice hat, I continued my way to the river port. Well surprised actually when suddenly some people came to me and said “Wat Arun tour, nice ship and nice trip only for 700 Bath”. I took 1 ship and pay 600 Bath or around 150 thousand rupiah and went to a place that called Wat Arun. Gosh… I was so afraid that time because the ship was really traditional and old, but it was fun when I could see some people that live in the corner of the river; I even couldn’t imagine how they could take a bath in that river and washing and other activity using that water. Looked at them and I felt really lucky.

In the middle of river suddenly the ship stop, one of local people that own the ship said to me that in here I could see huge fish, its were called Lele fish, well I don’t know how to called it in English. But it was really huge fish.

Finally we arrived in Wat Arun, again it was only castle, but I thought it was older that all castle in Grand Palace. For me it was not too excited. But yah I thought Bangkok it was castle city, when you could find lots old castles.

Night life in Bangkok was much better. Nice bars, nice clubs. They had nice huge mall, but what I didn’t like was, there were lots of unorganized street shops. However, the good thing there, you also could find outdoor bars where you could sit down enjoyed beer or just soft drink and had fun with your friends accompany by nice life music on the stage. It was nice. And also there was a place that hiding and I thought it was very famous in Bangkok. They had a program that called “a Tiger Show”, I had no idea in the first time when my hotel reception asked me to go there watching tiger show. So I went search that place. And hahahaha it’s a striptease place with some big bodyguards. That place openned around 11 pm, but I didn’t know how much the ticket because I cancelled enter that place and went back to my hotel with big laugh.

China town was 24 hours place, don’t worry I think that place was safe. But the important thing didn’t forget to bring your id in anywhere you went because sometimes police came to you suddenly mostly in the midnight and just asking about your id.

In the second day in Thailand, I took one day tour from my hotel going to Pattaya. The tour programs were Thailand-Pattaya-Coral Island- then backed again to Bangkok. The tour price was around 1800 Bath or 450 thousand rupiah. I went from hotel around 7 pm. Goodness, Bangkok had problem with traffic jam as same as Jakarta. In everywhere around the city... not in the morning, not in the night you will find traffic jam all over the city. Hmmm frustrating…. Finally we arrived in Pattaya around 10 am. Hmmm you’d see lots women that sat down in front of each café in there with minim dress and tried to get you to enter their café. For sure it would be fun for men. But be careful, maybe some of them is not real woman. I mean, there were lots men in Thailand that really pretty and they dress were like women.

The tour took me to place called centre of jewelry. There they’d bring you inside the cave and showed you how jewelry made. After that, they’d bring you to the shop that full with jewelry and you can choose which jewelry that fit on you. The price is depend how old the stone, older stone is more expensive. I bought one from medium Safire. ahh so woman.

Pattaya was a beach town; well if you ever went to Kuta in Bali I thought it’s almost the same area. Where you could find lots café near the street with nice beach in front of you. I took one boat and start the trip going to Coral Island with another 25 peoples joined me in that boat. Needed 3 hours with boat from pattaya to reach that island. In the middle way our boat stopped, to let us enjoy the little bit water sport in the port middle of ocean. After 30 minutes we continued our trip. We arrived, and everybody said “Oh my God”. From far we saw heaven. Blue water… white sand and nice green hill. We needed to change from our big boat to a smaller that finally brought us to the land. One of tourist coming from Europe only sat down on the land and just enjoyed that nice view. For me I directly went to the café to enjoy my late lunch and filled my empty stomach.

In Coral Island you could do alots water sports or just only snorkeling. I went more deep to the island and found some local people houses behind the hill. From the high, I saw that island as a heaven, really incredible. Took some pictures of mine with the island background (must be), I felt really lucky to enjoy that beauty. One thing that i should say, you couldn’t find any hotel in that island. So you just needed to come in the morning, enjoyed the sun and the view all day and backed to pattaya again in the afternoon.I could say that that island was really recommended place for you to go when you have little time to come to Thailand.

(IeRn)